Scars of slavery-2:  Why Slave Master began to drink heavily, haunted by memory of the crippled daughter he had rejected and lost

Scars of slavery-2:  Why Slave Master began to drink heavily, haunted by memory of the crippled daughter he had rejected and lost

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Continued….

The three days following the threat of being sold were the most tense of our lives. During the day, I worked normally, pretending nothing had changed, while secretly planning our escape.

Violeta remained at home, also feigning normalcy, but I could see the fear in her eyes whenever we met. The situation became even more urgent when we learned that the buyer from Ceará would arrive on Friday to collect me. We had only two days to escape.

“Joaquim,” Violeta whispered on the second night. “Are you sure there is a quilombo in the mountains?”

“I am. Moisés, the blacksmith, told me. It’s a two-day walk from here, hidden in a cave among the rocks. They say more than 50 free people live there.”

“But how will we get there? I can barely walk right, and I’m pregnant.”

“We’ll go slowly. We’ll take enough food and water, and I’ll carry you when you need it.”

Violeta held my hand. “You would do that? You would carry me?”

“I would carry you to the end of the world if necessary.”

During the day, I discreetly began gathering supplies. I kept tools that might be useful, gathered non-perishable food, and prepared a backpack with clothes and medicine. Violeta, in turn, sewed a special bag to carry our most precious belongings – her books and a few pieces of jewellery that could be traded for food.

“We have to leave tomorrow night,” I said on Wednesday. “It’s a new moon, it will be dark, and it’s the last chance before the buyer arrives.”

“I’m scared,” Violeta confessed.

“I am too, but I’m more scared of losing you.”

“What if they catch us?”

“They won’t. We’ll be careful. We’ll follow trails that only I know.”

In truth, I was terrified. I knew that if we were captured, I would be killed or sold to an even worse place, and Violeta… I didn’t even want to think about what they would do to her. But the alternative – living apart, our child being born a slave – was unacceptable.

On Thursday morning, something happened that almost ruined our plans. Dona Eulália appeared at our house unannounced.

“Violeta,” she said, entering without ceremony. “I came to see how you are.”

“I’m fine, stepmother,” Violeta replied, trying to hide her nervousness.

“Well, a pregnant woman whose husband is going to be sold tomorrow is fine?” Eulália walked through the house, observing everything with eagle eyes. My heart nearly stopped when she approached the cabinet where I had hidden the supplies.

“This house is very tidy,” she commented suspiciously. “Almost as if you were preparing for a trip.”

“I just like to keep everything clean,” Violeta said quickly.

Eulália studied her for a long moment. “Violeta, I hope you aren’t thinking of doing anything stupid.”

“Like what?”

“Like trying to run away with your husband? It would be a fatal mistake.”

“I would never.”

“Because if you try to run away,” Eulália continued coldly, “not only will Joaquim be killed when he is captured, but you will also be punished… and your baby. Well, babies are fragile.”

The veiled threat made Violeta turn pale. “I understand.”

“Great. Because I’m going to send someone to watch this house until Joaquim leaves tomorrow to ensure nothing happens.”

When Eulália left, Violeta collapsed into a chair, trembling. “She knows,” she whispered. “She knows we plan to run.”

“She doesn’t know. She only suspects, but that changes everything.”

“What are we going to do?”

I thought quickly. “We’re going to have to leave today, during the day. It’s riskier, but it’s our only chance.”

“During the day? But they’ll see us!”

“Not if we’re smart. I know a path through the back of the property, past the stream. If we leave at lunchtime, when everyone is resting, we might make it to the woods without being seen.”

Violeta took a deep breath. “Then let’s go. Now or never.”

We spent the morning finalising preparations. I told the overseer I was going to fix a fence at the back of the farm and wouldn’t return until late afternoon. Violeta told the maid she was going to rest and didn’t want to be disturbed.

At noon, when the sun was high and everyone retired for lunch and a nap, we began our escape. We left through the backdoor, Violeta leaning on her cane and a light backpack, me carrying the heavier supplies. We walked slowly through the yard, then the orchard, always staying in the shade of the trees.

“Is it hurting?” I asked when I noticed Violeta limping more than usual.

“A little, but I can keep going.”

We reached the stream without being seen. The water was low, and we managed to cross by jumping from stone to stone. On the other side, the thick woods began.

“From here, we’ll follow the hunters’ trail,” I explained. “It’s longer, but safer.”

We walked for two hours before making our first stop. Violeta was exhausted, her face red from the effort. “I need to rest,” she said, sitting on a rock.

“Of course, we have time.”

While she rested, I studied the terrain around us. We were in a part of the woods I knew well, but still within the farm’s boundaries. We needed to reach the border before nightfall.

“Joaquim,” Violeta said, “do you think we’ll make it?”

“We will. We have to.”

“And if the baby is born in the quilombo without a doctor, without a midwife?”

“There are women there who know how to help with birth, and our child will be born free. That’s worth any risk.”

Violeta smiled for the first time that day. “Our son… free. I like the sound of that.”

We continued walking until sunset. When darkness began to fall, we finally reached the farm’s boundary. We were officially off the colonel’s property.

“We made it,” I whispered, hugging Violeta. “We are free.”

“Free,” she repeated, as if testing the taste of the word.

We spent our first night of freedom in a small cave I found among the rocks. It was cold and damp, but it was ours. For the first time in our lives, we belonged to no one.

“I can’t believe we did this,” said Violeta, nestled in my arms.

“We did. And tomorrow we start our new life.”

“What will it be like, do you think, living in the quilombo?”

“I don’t know, but it will be our choice. That’s what matters.”

The next morning, we resumed the trek. The terrain became more difficult as we climbed the mountain, but Violeta proved stronger than I expected. Her determination to reach freedom seemed to give her strength she didn’t know she possessed.

“Look,” she said during a rest stop, pointing to the valley below. “The farm looks so small from up here.”

It was true. The Boa Esperança farm, which had been our entire world, now seemed like just a distant dot in the landscape. “Small and distant,” I agreed, “like our past.”

In the late afternoon of the second day, we finally saw signs of the quilombo. First, it was a well-marked trail, clearly used regularly. Then the smell of campfire smoke. Finally, human voices echoing through the trees.

“Who goes there?” a male voice shouted as we approached.

“Fugitives,” I replied. “We seek shelter.”

Three men emerged from the woods, all armed with machetes and improvised spears. They studied us carefully. “Where did you flee from?” asked the leader, a tall, strong man about 40 years old.

“Boa Esperança farm in the valley. Colonel Ferreira.”

The men exchanged looks. “We know his reputation. You are welcome.

And so, after two days of dangerous walking, we arrived at the Quilombo of the Mountain of Freedom. It was a magical place, hidden in a large natural cave surrounded by steep rocks. Inside the cave, a small village had been built with wooden and stone houses, carefully cultivated vegetable gardens, and even a school where children learned to read.

“Welcome to freedom,” said the leader, who introduced himself as Captain João. “Here you will be free to live as you choose.”

In the two years that followed, we lived the happiest days of our lives. In the quilombo, Violeta flourished completely. Her intelligence was recognised and valued. She became the school teacher, teaching the children to read and write. Her physical disability was not seen as a defect, but simply as a characteristic that made her unique. I worked as a carpenter, building houses and furniture for the community.

For the first time in my life, my work was valued not only for its quality but because it was done freely by my own choice.

“Are you happy?” I asked Violeta one night as we watched the stars outside our little house.

“Happier than I ever dreamed possible,” she replied, her hand on her growing belly.

“Here I am just Violeta, the teacher. I am not the Colonel’s crippled daughter. And our child will grow up here free, without knowing chains.”

“Without knowing chains,” she repeated, smiling.

But our happiness was about to come to an end. In December 1879, when Violeta was eight months pregnant, the slave hunters finally found us. The attack came on a cold December dawn when the mist still covered the mountain like a ghostly shroud. I was sleeping soundly beside Violeta when the alarm shouts echoed through the cave.

“Slave hunters! Run!”

I jumped out of bed, my heart racing. Violeta, eight months pregnant, tried to get up but struggled with her heavy womb. “Joaquim, what is happening?”

“They found us,” I said, helping her dress quickly. “We have to get out of here.”

Outside, chaos had taken over. Men, women, and children were running in every direction, trying to escape through the secret paths that led out of the cave. The sound of gunshots echoed off the stone walls, mixed with screams of terror and pain.

“This way!” shouted Captain João, beckoning us to follow a group heading for a side exit.

We moved fast, but Violeta couldn’t run. Her atrophied leg, combined with the weight of her pregnancy, made her stumble with every step. I picked her up, trying to carry her, but the slave hunters were approaching rapidly.

“Leave me,” she whispered. “Save yourself!”

“Never. We go together or not at all.”

We managed to reach the entrance of the secret passage when an authoritative voice shouted behind us: “Stop right there!”

We turned and saw five armed men, led by a slave hunter I recognised: Severino Cardoso, known throughout the region for his cruelty toward fugitive slaves.

“Well, well,” said Severino, approaching with a cruel smile. “If it isn’t the Colonel Ferreira’s little daughter and her slave husband.”

“How did you find us?” I asked, placing Violeta behind me.

“It wasn’t hard. The colonel offered a very generous reward for you. 500,000 réis for each. Violeta held my arm. 500,000 réis? My father offered that much?”

“Your father wants you back very much, especially after he heard about the baby that is coming.”

Severino signalled to his men, who surrounded us. “Now come quietly. We don’t want to hurt the child.”

“We are not going back,” I said firmly.

“No?” Severino laughed. “Look around you. You are surrounded. She is pregnant and can barely walk. What choice do you have?”

It was true. There was nowhere to run. The other quilombolas had escaped, but we were trapped.

“Joaquim,” Violeta whispered, “perhaps it is better.”

“No. Two years of freedom were worth it. I will not go back to being a slave.”

I picked up a piece of wood that was on the ground, preparing to fight. I knew I stood no chance against five armed men, but I would not surrender without a fight.

“Don’t be a fool,” Severino said. “Fight and you will die right here. Come quietly and at least you will live.”

“Living as a slave is not living.”

“Then die like a fool.”

Severino signalled for his men to attack. I managed to knock down two of them before they overpowered me, but soon I was on the ground, bleeding, with my hands tied behind my back. Violeta screamed when she saw me fall.

“Don’t hurt him, please!”

“Too late for requests,” Severino said coldly. “He chose to resist.”

The trip back to the farm lasted three agonising days. I walked with my hands tied and a rope around my neck. Violeta went on a mule, but I could see that every bump in the road made her suffer.

“The baby,” she whispered during a rest stop. “I think the baby is coming.”

“We’re not there yet,” Severino said impatiently. “Hold on tight.”

“She needs medical care,” I protested. “The baby could be born at any moment.”

“Not my problem. The Colonel wants you alive. He didn’t say anything about the baby.”

On the second night, Violeta’s pains intensified. She writhed on the blanket where we had laid her, groaning in pain.

“Joaquim,” she cried, “it hurts so much. I think it’s time.”

“Untie my hands,” I begged Severino. “Let me help her.”

“So you can run away? No way.”

“Where am I going to run? She is having the baby; she needs help.”

Severino considered for a moment, then nodded to one of his men. “Untie his hands, but if he tries anything, kill them both.”

With my hands free, I could finally help Violeta. I was no midwife, but I had helped with the birth of some animals on the farm; it was better than nothing.

“Take a deep breath,” I said, holding her hand. “It’s going to be okay.”

“It’s not going to be okay,” she cried. “Our son will be born a slave; he will be born in captivity.”

“Our son will be born loved, that is what matters.”

The labour lasted all night. Violeta fought bravely, but I could see she was losing a lot of blood. When the sun rose, our son finally came into the world – a beautiful, healthy boy who cried loudly.

“It’s a boy,” I whispered, placing the child in Violeta’s arms.

“Our son,” she said, tears of joy mixing with tears of pain. “Our João.”

She had chosen the name in honour of Captain João, who had welcomed us at the quilombo. But my joy was short-lived. Violeta was very pale, and the bleeding wouldn’t stop.

“Violeta, stay with me,” I said, holding her hand.

“I’m trying,” she whispered, “but I’m so tired.”

“You can’t give up now. João needs you.”

She looked at the baby in her arms, then at me. “Take care of him, Joaquim. Promise me you will take care of him.”

“You will take care of him. We will take care of him together.”

But I could see the life draining from her eyes. “Promise?”

“I promise.”

Violeta smiled one last time, kissed the baby’s forehead and closed her eyes forever.

“Violeta!” I screamed, but it was too late. Severino approached, looking at the scene with indifference.

“Is she dead?”

“She is dead,” I replied, my voice broken.

“Pity. The colonel won’t like that.”

I held my son in my arms, looking at Violeta’s peaceful face. In two years, she had gone from a broken, rejected young woman to a strong, loved woman. She had known happiness, love and freedom, and she had given birth to our son.

“At least she died free,” I whispered.

“Free?” Severino laughed cruelly. “She died a fugitive, like a criminal.”

“She died as a free woman who chose her own destiny.”

We buried Violeta on a small hill overlooking the valley where we had been happy. There was no priest, no elaborate ceremony, just me, my new-born son, and the promise that her memory would be honoured. When we arrived at the farm the next day, Colonel Ferreira was waiting for us at the gate. His face showed a mixture of relief and fury.

“Where is my daughter?” was the first thing he said.

“She died in childbirth,” I answered, holding João against my chest.

The colonel stood in silence for a long moment, processing the news. When he finally spoke, his voice was heavy with a pain he tried to hide behind anger.

“She died because of you,” he said coldly. “If you hadn’t run away, she would be alive.”

“She died free,” I replied. “It was her choice.”

“Choice?” the colonel exploded. “She was a child! You convinced her to run away.”

“She chose freedom over prison. She chose love over rejection.”

The colonel approached, his eyes fixed on the baby in my arms. “This is my grandson.”

“He is your grandson, João. Violeta chose the name.”

For a moment, I saw something break in the colonel’s hardened face. It was as if he finally understood what he had lost – not just a daughter, but the chance to truly know her.

“Give me the child,” he said, reaching out his hands.

“No.”

“What did you say?”

“I will not hand over my son. Violeta made me promise I would take care of him.”

“You are a slave!” shouted the colonel. “You have no rights over anything.”

“I have a right over my son.”

Severino stepped forward. “Do you want me to take the child by force, colonel?”

The colonel hesitated. He looked at me, then at the baby, then at Severino. “No,” he finally said. “Let him hold the child for now.”

I was taken to a makeshift cell in the basement of the Big House. It was a damp, dark place, but at least I was with João. For three days, I cared for him alone, feeding him goat’s milk that a kind slave woman brought to me secretly. On the third day, the colonel came down to see me.

“Joaquim,” he said, his voice calmer than before. “We have to talk.”

“About what?”

“About the future of you and the child.”

He sat on an old box, suddenly looking older and tired.

“You killed my daughter.”

“Your daughter died free and happy. That is more than she ever had here.”

“She could have had a good life here. She could have married someone suitable.”

“With whom? Five men rejected her. You yourself said no decent man would want her.”

The colonel closed his eyes. “I was wrong.”

“You were. You were afraid of the s of what people would say.”

“And now?”

“Now she is dead, and you have to live with that for the rest of your life.”

He looked at João, who was sleeping peacefully in my arms. “He looks like her. He has her eyes. And he will grow up a slave like you.”

“Not if I can help it.”

The colonel studied me. “You really loved her, didn’t you?”

“I loved her more than my own life.”

“And did she love you?”

“She did. For the first time in her life, she felt loved and valued.”

Tears began to form in the colonel’s eyes.

“I failed her. I was a terrible father.”

“You were. But you can still be a better grandfather.”

“How?”

“Free your grandson. Give him the chance you denied Violeta.”

The colonel was silent for a long time.

“And you? What happens to you?”

“That doesn’t matter. What matters is João.”

“It matters to me. You made my daughter happy. That… that means something.”

The next day, the colonel made a decision that surprised everyone. Instead of selling or punishing me, he offered me a deal.

“Joaquim,” he said, “I’m going to give you a choice. You can try to run away again; I won’t pursue you. Or you can stay here and help raise João.”

“Stay here as a slave?”

“As a free man. I will give you your letter of manumission.”

I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. “Why?”

“Because my daughter loved you. And because… because maybe it’s the only way to honour her memory. And João… João will be raised as my grandson – free, educated, with all the privileges I can give.”

It was a tempting offer, but there was a problem.

“And Dona Eulália? She will never accept this.”

“Eulália has no choice. This is my decision.”

I accepted the offer, but with conditions.

“I want João to know who his mother was. I want him to know she died free, that she chose love over fear.”

“I agree.”

“And I want to visit her – her grave – regularly.”

“I also agree.”

And so began a new phase of our lives. I officially became free, but remained on the farm as a carpenter and João’s caregiver. The colonel, true to his word, treated the boy as a legitimate grandson, giving him an education, fine clothes and all the love he had denied Violeta.

But the weight of guilt was destroying the colonel. s At night, I heard him walking through the house, murmuring pleas for forgiveness to ghosts only he could see.

“Joaquim,” he said one of those nights, clearly intoxicated, “do you think she would forgive me?”

“Violeta had a kind heart. She would forgive.”

“I called her a burden. I said no decent man would want her.”

“But in the end, you recognised your mistake. That counts for something.”

“It counts. She is dead, Joaquim. Dead because of my cruelty.”

There was no answer for that. The colonel was right. His rejection had led Violeta to accept an arranged marriage, which in turn had led to love, flight and finally, death.

The years that followed were a strange mixture of joy and melancholy. João grew up as a happy and loved child, but always in the shadow of the tragedy that had marked his birth. I became his surrogate father, teaching him not only carpentry but also about his mother and the importance of freedom.

“Papa Joaquim,” he said one afternoon when he was five years old. “Why isn’t Mommy here?”

It was a question I knew would come, but that didn’t make it any easier to answer.

“Your mother is in heaven, my son, but she loved you very much and died so that you could be born.”

“Was she beautiful?”

“She was the most beautiful woman in the world, and the bravest too.”

“Tell me about her.”

And I would tell him. Every night I told stories about Violeta – how intelligent she was, how she had taught herself to read, how she had become a teacher in the quilombo, how she had chosen freedom over safety. The Colonel, for his part, sank deeper into alcohol and guilt. He adored João, but every look at the boy reminded him of Violeta and his own failures as a father.

“He has her smile,” he would often say, watching João play in the garden.

“He does. And her intelligence too. Do you think she would be proud of him?”

“She would be. And of you too, for taking good care of him.”

But the colonel could not forgive himself. In 1883, when João was four years old, he began to have health problems related to alcoholism. His liver was failing, and the doctors said he wouldn’t live much longer.

“Joaquim,” he said in one of his last lucid conversations, “promise me you will take care of João when I’m gone.”

“I promise. But he is your grandson; he has a right to the inheritance.”

“I’ve already arranged everything. Half the farm will be his when he turns 18. The other half is yours.”

“Mine?”

“You saved my daughter from loneliness. You gave her two years of happiness. You deserve to be rewarded.”

“I don’t want a reward. I only want João to grow up knowing who his mother was.”

“He will know. I wrote everything in a diary. How Violeta was as a child, how I failed her. How you made her happy. When he is older, give it to him.”

The colonel died in December 1885, at the age of 63. His last words were: “Violeta, forgive me.”

The funeral was a sombre occasion. Dona Eulália, who had been removed from the farm’s administration after Violeta’s death, appeared to contest the will.

“It’s absurd,” she said to the lawyer, “to leave half the farm to an ex-slave and the other half to a bastard child.”

“The will is legal and valid,” the lawyer replied. “The colonel was in full use of his faculties when he wrote it.”

“But it’s a scandal! What will they say in society?”

“They will say that a man tried to correct the mistakes of the past,” I said calmly.

Eulália looked at me with hatred. “You destroyed this family.”

“This family destroyed itself. I only tried to save what was left.”

In time, the farm became prosperous under my administration. I freed all the remaining slaves and hired them as free labourers.

Many were grateful for the opportunity to earn fair wages and live with dignity. João grew up surrounded by love and respect. By age 10, he already knew how to read and write better than many adults. By 15, he was studying in São Paulo, preparing for university.

“Papa Joaquim,” he said during one of his visits, “I want to study medicine.”

“Why?”

“To help people like Mommy – people who are rejected by society for being different.”

My heart filled with pride. Violeta would be so proud of the man her son was becoming.

In 1888, when the Golden Law was signed, we organised a big party at the farm. João, then nine years old, gave a speech that moved everyone.

“Today,” he said, climbing onto a box to stand taller, “we are all free. But my mother was already free a long time ago. She chose freedom when she ran away with my father. She taught me, even before I was born, that freedom is more important than safety.”

When João turned 18 in 1897, I handed him the diary the colonel had written. He read it all in one night, crying as he discovered details about his mother that I had never told him.

“She suffered so much,” he said, closing the diary.

“She suffered, but she was also very happy. The two years we spent in the quilombo were the happiest of her life – and mine too. Your mother taught me that love can heal any wound, overcome any obstacle.”

João graduated in medicine in 1902, becoming one of the first black doctors in Brazil. He opened a free clinic for poor and disabled people, fulfilling his promise to help those rejected by society.

“It’s what Mommy would have done,” he said at the clinic’s opening. “It’s exactly what she would have done.”

In 1905, João married a young teacher named Maria, an intelligent and kind woman who reminded me very much of Violeta. They had three children, all raised with the values of equality and compassion that Violeta had championed. I lived to be 82 years old, long enough to see my grandchildren grow and prosper. I died in 1931, surrounded by the family that Violeta and I had started. My last words were for João.

“Your mother would be proud of the man you’ve become.”

“And you, Papa Joaquim? Are you proud?”

“Prouder than words can express.”

The farm became a symbol of social transformation. Where once there was slavery and rejection, now there was equality and acceptance. João’s clinic treated people of all colours and conditions without discrimination.

In 1950, when João was already a respected and influential doctor, he wrote a book about our story. The Love That Conquered Prejudice became a bestseller, inspiring countless people to overcome their own limitations and prejudices.

“This story,” João wrote in the dedication, “is for my mother, Violeta, who taught me that being different is not being inferior. And for my father, Joaquim, who taught me that true love knows no barriers.”

The house where Violeta and I lived our first months of marriage was preserved as a museum. Visitors from all over the country come to learn the story of the young “crippled” girl who found true love and died free.

In the museum garden, there is a statue of Violeta sitting on the bench where we used to talk, a book in her lap, looking at the horizon with hope. The plaque at the base reads: Violeta Ferreira, 1861-1879. She chose love over fear.

Today, more than a century later, our story still inspires. Schools use our example to teach about the acceptance of diversity. Families find hope in our love, and people with disabilities are inspired by Violeta’s courage.

I had started as a widowed and broken slave. Violeta had started as a rejected and hidden young woman. Together, we created a love story that transcended all social, racial and physical barriers. We proved that true love does not see defects, only differences that make each person unique and special. We showed that a life lived with love and dignity, even if brief, is worth more than a long life lived in shame and fear.

Violeta died at age 18, but her influence lasted generations. She taught me that everyone deserves love and respect, regardless of their limitations. And together, we taught the world that the true value of a person lies not in their physical perfection, but in the beauty of their soul.

Our story is proof that love always finds a way, even in the most difficult circumstances, and that sometimes the people society considers “defective” are exactly those who have the most to teach about courage, compassion, and humanity.

This was the story of Violeta and Joaquim, whose love defied all the social conventions of their time. Violeta died in 1879 at age 18, but her legacy of courage and dignity continued through her son João, who became a renowned physician and advocate for the rights of people with disabilities.

Joaquim lived until 1931, dedicating his life to honouring Violeta’s memory and raising his son with the values of equality and compassion. The farm where they lived was transformed into a museum in 1960, preserving the history of how true love can overcome any prejudice.

The echoes of Violeta and Joaquim resonate through time, reminding us that true love knows no barriers and that every person, regardless of their differences, deserves dignity and respect.

  • A Tell Media report / Source: The Global Times
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